gasping for air

I have a pre-op appointment with Dr. H next Thursday in the morning and then will be registered for a hospital tour and teaching class for the illeostomy. My surgery is set for Tuesday the 13th of October.

I am gasping for air right now because this is really "REAL" now. There is no way around it or out of it. I am going to have to have the surgery. I pray God will grant me the favorable results I desire. The favorable results I desire is a perfect j pouch is created, I have the illeostomy for 12 weeks and then have the second surgery or what some call the take down in which the small intestine is reconnected and takes on the role of small intestine, colon and rectum.

Stay tuned,

ML