tick tock tick tock

So it seems like the days are going by so quickly. We are almost at a month out. I feel like I have so much to do in such a short window of time. Most moments though I want to think about and attend to anything but this surgery and all that pertains to it.

I got a call from Methodist yesterday about pre-registering and I ignored the call. Then they called my cell phone. I listened to the message and a sinking feeling came over me.

I am sure that as the days draw near I will be growing ever more anxious and panic filled. I must remember though that I can not control this and that I should just surrender to it. Of course I know who is in control and I need not be afraid however, I am but a mere human.